Excitement

I am pretty excited for the future. I am hoping to get a research grant over the summer and I am teaching next year at a University! I feel good. I have to do two more finals, that part is not so cool. I did pretty well on my art final. I chose to do a master copy of Raphaels' St. George and the Dragon. I picked it because I love the name George, enjoy dragons and all that lore, and Raphael is one of my favorite ninja turtles. I didn't feel the need to explain all that while I was being critiqued but I do like my line of reasoning. I am childish but in a fun way I hope. I have not been up to much in particular. It is Cinco de Mayo but we are broke until Friday and we need to pay rent. Kevin is as great as ever. I am really unsure what to blog about at this time; I just thought maybe I should write something since it's been awhile. I will bitch for a little bit I guess- why can't men be shot down and still act like men? They are all nice to you and flirt and act like your friend, then they find out that you have a boyfriend and they turn into complete jerks. I can't believe the thought about whether they may get laid or not actually impacts their actions so damn much. I try to be nice to everyone whether I am getting something or not but not everyone is so. I do not like friendships of convenience, I always wind up being the one used and taken for granted. I tried to be friends with this one chick and she was kinda cool but the only time she would call me to hang out was when she needed something. And when we did hang out all she could do was play with her baby, not that that's a bad thing but why invite someone over at all if your going to completely ignore them? I do not do friendships of convenience anymore, I want to be friends with people that are excited to hang out with me just because rather than just because I can help them out. It was pretty lame altogether. Totally thought the last friend I had was cool until she treated me the way everyone else did besides using me. I hate to be underestimated and have had to deal with it my entire life. Even now I deal with it and I just don't think it is worth trying to prove myself to stuck up bitches anymore. I am glad to be graduating from the grad program soon. I know who I am and I am a blunt and aggressive woman. I just go for it and live as best I know how. I feel sorry for those stagnant ponds called people that cover a smaller circle of area and just let their lives grow over with stank moss water and gnats. I prefer to compare my life to an awesome river rapids ride. We go fast, there may be some rocks but there are also some nice calm areas and beauty all around. Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke and if they can take a joke, they may be friend-worthy. New friends that are excited to hang out with you for the sake of your company are the best kinds of friends. Case closed :)